2019 recap “IN THE BEGINNING”

The beginning of…

2019 was quite honestly the strangest, amazing, frustrating, and interesting year by far.

To kick it off the then-new and now old “2019 new year’s” I spend the day with my cousin and chilled till the less impressive, but still memorable 2019, at home drinking and playing injustice. I am not much of a party person and some crazy new year’s bash isn’t exactly on my agenda so relaxing at home and playing games was more my style; especially with gin, tonic, and tapas are involved!

  So, to kick off the 2019 recap new year what happened?!

I got in a car accident… yup… well for the first few weeks of 2019 when I was on break for school my family and I decided to go to the Tokyo Central market and the trip was awesome!! Ladies nothing is nicer than going to a large grocery store with all the food, ingredients, and random niche nacks…what that’s just me *distant “lame”* -cough cough- there was a wide variety of Japanese food plus you can buy tempura by the pound!!

After spending a couple of hours there myself, aunt, sister, and two cousins disembark for the 45 min back home. However, it was about 10 mins later when there was a slowdown ( I was the one driving) so I had to brake despite the light being green past the four cars ahead of me. Classic CA traffic I suppose.

SHI—- BOOOM- CRASH

We got rear-ended, and fortunately, everyone including the person that rear-ended us was also fine. The cars not so much especially the other person’s sedan. The front was completely wrecked, although the person that the lady called refused a tow truck and drove it off despite the entire front destroyed. Our SUV had the rear bumper, right taillight, and brakes smashed, but at the very least everyone was well.

Yup at the beginning of 2019 not a great start

Because of that accident, I had to go to the chiropractor, which would be fine and all except I was starting classes soon!!!

I was always late to my class due to the chiropractor meeting because the earliest they opened was at 9:30 am meaning by the time I was finished it was the “start at 10 am or 11 am” students making parking a nightmare!!

Then midway through January 2019, I started my internship again, so my social life dropped to nothing. I was able to build my current computer because the last time I did that was like 6-7 years ago so a little plus side.

Then going through MY LAST SEMESTER of school was exciting. It wasn’t without its struggles though. If I could go back to school, I would tell myself to take it at my own pace if I could… and commit to it!

So, the issue with me and school is how bad my study habits are along with how pressure affects me. I am pretty resilient to stress, but the things that always get me are emotional stresses. Meaning when I feel bad, I FEEL HORRIBLE and that was happening throughout college. The reason being is that my first year through college was fine and I did pretty good. Then I got into a less than desired relationship that I ended up not continuing. That negatively effected my grades, and I got a lot of flack from my uncle from it. If it was a done deal that would be fine, but he kept reminding me about it as if to crush me by my failure and it was suffocating me. I felt like to succeed I had to kick everything into high gear. Yes, I did graduate and yes I SURVIVED!! But a lot of my passion and direction were snuffed out in the process.

My passion was to go through school and study biotechnology, I was downright passionate about to because I wanted to go into prosthetic. But my drive and passion dwindled to the feeling of being delayed in school. That self-loathing made me rush. So yes, I did finish fast, but without grace. I colored a picture with nothing more than a glimpse of it. So, if I could do it again I would try my hardest to do things the way I want and use my intuition.