1.31.2020 Photography,Pheelings, Phridays

Happy Friday and end of the first month in 2020.

Before I begin my random though topic I want to honor the loss of Kobe Bryant. He was an icon, a father, and THE LEGEND. Despite not watching sport very much growing up I was still surrounded by the Lakers and by association Kobe Bryant. For me Kobe was the topic shifter, the conversation keeper, the Lakers rise to fame AND the colors of my Highschool is Las Vegas. I may not feel as much pain as Lakers fans/ fans of Kobe, yet I do feel great sadness. A nerd that hardly watch sport was still touched by Kobe and through the few basketball games, I watched with my grandpa or references heard by people [ ball of paper tossed in trash bin] KOBE!!  We all morn the tragic loss of the legend and his daughter, Gigi Bryant. Rest in peace, forever in our memories

This week I want to talk about the changes in my life. It has bee quite a change of pace for me. I have plans to change the design of the blog and revamp the system( including getting Sal plus others) in, but the process has been slow and somewhat painful.

I want the blog to grow and become something someone somewhere can read casually on there break or when they have downtime. However, I don’t feel that it’s not ready, I feel that I don’t have enough interest in my life to make this blog something special.

When I started the blog, I was going to university and stopped working so I could focus on the last semester. The initial thought of having the blog was great! I and my friend were super excited to get out there and commit to something special, creative, and fun.

The first step was a nightmare! We had SSL issues and random issues with uploads that left such bad taste in our mouths that made us hesitant to contribute without fear something else breaking. I began to post more often; typically on Fridays, because I made a clever alliteration to photography and Friday (yes I know I am a nerd) which I focused on Photography along with writing. Whereas my Sal would focus on music and deeper thoughts. It was pretty good for the most part and we were seeing some success for a few months.

Then things got really busy, at the same time Sal was working on a Podcast with Allen #ThoseNerdsOverThere and I gonna tell you typing takes much more time to process effectively over the course of time. Like it is far easier for me to edit a video then a decent blog post where Sal was geared to the podcast as its more a one-day commitment versus planning out an entire page/pages of content. So yeah the blog slowly became a pain; at least that’s how I felt. Also because I set time for the blog and was going to school I realize that made my life INCREDIBLE BORING!! Think back I realized I kinda set myself up for failure. Ultimately, A.) the stress of the last semester B.) gotta save that money cause I wasn’t working and C.) my free time breed laziness due to lack of inspiration.

This led me into a seasonal sadness, As the semester wrapped up I was looking for work and let’s just say I got really antsy and depressed. It took me a long time to find work and with the expenses of car repairs ( tires and a hit a freaking Cayote), and two weddings along with my homies texts:

Homie: hey you free?

Me: [losing my mind] yeah

Homie: let’s get food

Me: [drives off] OMW!.. Where are we going?!   

I fell into a spiral of worries and thoughts that I could have written about, which I did, but not as much as I would have liked.

Fast forward to the new year, I am working and it chaos…I drive 1 hour and something two and forth to work for an 8 am-4:45 pm I wouldn’t have the time any other way, but the commute time with LA traffic is really bad plus I drive 80 miles a day or 64 miles depending how bad traffic is soooo yeah 160$ a month for gas…love you Costco gas card gimme them points! I work in accounting, the people are great, the environment is corporate, yet not too stiff collared. I do enjoy the people I work with, but 12 hours out if the house 8 hours of sleep that leaves 4 hours of just me time… pretty sad

Big sigh-I am sure it will benefit me in the long term as I work my way up, but for now, I got manage my time.

This was actually nice and pleasant : ) I will keep this up I promise and revamp the blog #2020goals

I didn’t even get to tell you about my coworker that is a complete Weeb